Time has passed
The waters smoothed
The memories still fresh however not in the fore
Triggers still make me cry, the pain will never leave
Dropped from page 1 of the internet Search, not even page 2, 3 or 4
I only exist in the front of my mind, not any one elses
Have they forgotten? Moved on? Died?
The curses thrown back at them, let them suffer too.
Time does not sooth the anger and frustration that ripples in my head
The times when I know its wrong but I sincerely wish them dead
The fury is rising up, quelch it as I try
Torn between lashing out and hiding away to cry
Beathing deeply to retain my calm
A quiet veneer, only just skin deep
My head spinning, waves of responsibility and rage smashing around inside my head
Where did those smooth waters go?
How do I regain the calm?
No one sees my inner anguish, that will not go away
Take away this ripping pain, the endless stress and sorrow
Struggling, struggling to see the light that may be here tomorrow